Saturday, September 29, 2007 @ 12:14:00 PM
Study
The Punishment For Studyin too Hard=P
Brothers 4 Life
OutSide Forest of Emo-eR??
The Crazy Trio
Our Reflection Outside Crystal Jade Resturant
The CleaneRs
Band Of Brothers
Everyone was acting to slp but i realli did slp =PYtd Nite was Fun.. went to study wif JingXiang,TatMing,ShangYi,William N ChekLim @ Changi AirPort.We Studied at The Mac's @ Terminal2..
At first everyone was studyin so i read on my DanBrown's Angel and Demons.Then Someone spotted a chio gal and insisted tatming to help him take horrr..hahax
The Gal muz be irritated ba..Was Chio frm BedokView..but i am not suitable for chio gals ba..then everyone got tired and we had a journey to the Whole changi airport..=.=lll not exactly the WHOLE,but terminal 1&2..while we are the carpark. we had a Cartgo Race..First Chek Push me,then change over..everyone was crazy,high,happy..tats when i feel,i am welcomed and there are frens out there to go through everythings and i forget everything tat is bad at tat moment we are all Crazy and high=P hahax..We had a great time..We TOOK alot of PICS.
Need tat SHANG to wake up early..We upload soon..
Reached Home tis morning abt 6am or 7am..Frm ytd nite 9pm-morning 6am
i reach home..Slp LIAO=P=P=P
Leg is so sore and tired then head is spinnin dizzy.Bath & SLP..=P
Tats was a Great Experience,Rock ON!!
FreNShip Do LAST!
@ 12:04:00 PM
Hei Se You Mo
难过是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多
是心理起了作用
你说苦笑常常陪着你
在一起有点勉强
该不该现在休了我
不想太多
我想一定是我听错弄错搞错
拜托我想是你的脑袋有问题
随便说说
其实我早已经猜透看透不想多说
只是我怕眼泪撑不住
不懂你的黑色幽默
想通却又再考倒我
说散你想很久了吧
我不想拆穿你
当作是你开的玩笑
想通却又再考倒我
说散你想很久了吧
败给你的黑色幽默
我的认真败给黑色幽默
Friday, September 28, 2007 @ 5:04:00 PM
Family Matters.
When things go so wrong,it might not be able to return.
Today i started watchin naruto but when i realli started to lyk it,on esp5...
My Dad and Mum Quarrelled..Unlike those other time,tis time my dad fought back and cried out his pain to my mum..i felt useless at tat point as i din help..shutted com and stayed silence in my room..I felt helpless and alone..
My Mum threw everything tat belongs to my dad outside..it lasted abt 30mins
My Mum said"你最好不要给我那个臭脸，不然你也收拾你的衣服根爸爸一起走。"
I was at fault by juz walkin pass her..i felt sense of alone when tat sentence enters my ears..i almost cry but i din cuz i noe no one will care if i die or sad..
I extistence was nth to everyone,i am juz a nobody.
I borrowed money frm all my frens juz to pay off my bill and take care the sim card juz becuz someone stole my phone and he was so happy runnin somewhere wif my phone..i saw him today in sch,he was there jokin here and there makin me more frustrated and the same time..
I FELT ALONE AND SAD..I HAD NO ONE TO GO TO...
I tried to kill myself frm time to time..the times are devastating..
Bauntong-$30
Tzyyian-$20
Weisong-$50
TatMing-$25
Nicholas-$108
William-$14
ShangYi-$10
Tats wat happen when i lost my phone..Probs and things started to go wrong
i had thought of goin elene hse to stay.Leave the hse.To Fulfil My Mum's Wish.
Phone lost,Now Family Probs..I am Tearin apart soon..
I need someone to be there for me..
i will be gone soon...
Dun Miss me Cuz Things Will Juz Turn Out Fine Wifout Me Around.
Thursday, September 27, 2007 @ 3:27:00 PM
Song I Loved
Aqua Timez - ALONES
Bleach OP#6
ALONES full version
Lyrics:
oreta awai tsubasa
kimi wa sukoshi aosugiru
sora ni tsukareta dake sa
mou dareka no tame janakute
jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo
izen toshi-te shinobiyoru kodoku
uchigawa ni tomaru rousoku
nigi wa ubau ni koukana-chandaria to wa urahara ni
tarinai kotoba no
kubomi wo nanide umetaraiin darou
mou wakaranai yo
semete yume no naka de
jiyuu ni oyogetara
anna sora mo iranai no ni
kinou made no koto wo
nuritsubusanakutemo
asu ni mukaeru no ni
oreta awai tsubasa
kimi wa sukoshi aosugiru
sora ni tsukaretadake sa
mou dareka no tame janakute
jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo
-----TV Size END----
rettoukan to no wakai wa
kantan ni wa kanawanaisa
jiishiki no teppen ni suwaru
kagami ga utsusu hanabira
furishiboru you ni
kogoreta ai wo sakende miru keredo
modokashikute
meguru toki no naka de
kizuguchi wa yagate
kasabuta ni kawatte iku
kimi wa sore o matasu
totemo utsukushiku
totemo hakanage de
hagare ochita ato no
ubuge no you ni
hiwamari no naka de furueru inori
ima wa muri ni dareka no koto
ai sou to omowanakute ii no ni
toki ni kono sekai wa
ue wo muite
aruku ni wa sukoshi mabushisugiru ne
shizumu you ni
me wo fuseru to
kawaita shimen ga namida wo susuru
why do you remember
without having now
subete wo uketomenakute no ii yo
why do you remember
without having now
koraeru koto dakedoyuuki ja nai
English translation:
Your fragile, folded wings
are tired from the pure blue sky.
You don't have to force your smile for anyone.
It's okay to smile
for yourself.
That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me.
A single candle still burns inside.
There shouldn't be an expensive chandelier in a wild place
like this.
Can I really bury it all with empty words?
I don't know anymore...
As long as we can swim freely in our dreams
we won't need the sky anymore.
Even if you can't let go of the past
I'll still be there to meet with you tomorrow.
Your fragile, folded wings
are tired from the pure blue sky.
You don't have to force your smile for anyone.
It's okay to smile
for yourself.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007 @ 7:26:00 PM
Todayzz
Today..Din went to sch as i dun find lyk goin..Mind was still a piece of blank space,tml is english End of Year Exam(EYE)..doesnt wan to take but had too.
its cost me a bomb to get tat phone,its cost me a life to get tat msg.
She is dead,No another msg can be replace by it..Its Lost..To Those thiefs the msg means nth to them..But tat msg means a life to me..its more impt then my own life.tats wat it means for me..My Heart Aches when i think of it.Tears Drops.
Felt a feelins of betrayal.Trusted Frens.2nd Most trusted Malay Fren,Betrayed me by stealin my phone..Or is it God Tryin to make Start Over Agn?
I Felt so alone..U noe how i felt lyk,both were Smallest in Family and some sort common in mani ways which makes us lasted for 2yrs.Onli u Understands me.
I found someone whos common to me,but i think i dun hav any chance ba...
Felt so alone.Tat Phone was lyk a fren,And i will nv forget wat u wrote in tat msg:
"I am doin great here=) Dun hav to worry.We had been apart for so long,Soon i will be to Singapore..we can meet and go to tat old place,"Cafe del Mar",Gettin those sea breeze.Rmb u Promise me to Live a CheerFul Life!!=P Love U LOTS!!=)
Liane."
i had let u dwn.i cant live a cheerful life when i lost smth u had last given me.How could i possibly forget abt it and continue?..I had tried to find replacement of u.But its unfair to them..instead i was left there rot for ppl to pick me up rather then i movin forward to them..Is Tat u who realli wan me to forget u and start over?...I had a gal in mind now,But i doesnt noe am i realli up to her standard or i am good enuff for her..i thought tat if i am tgt wif her will make a great match.
But does she like me or takes me as fren?I dun noe,i will juz concentrate on my studies but too much things goin through me head.. Memories,Frenship,Trust,Family,Financial Probs N Love For her...
I love u.U like me? I dun expect tat u love me too.But juz wanna say i Do.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 @ 1:54:00 PM
Ytd Agn~
Haha ytd no time to post.continue today
Haix ytd was another borin sch say as usual.Time pass as i draws dots.
haha.Ytd promise jac to meet at 6.45am at 7-11 i slept till 6,55am.sent a sry msg to her liao=P=P=P But at last she was also late=P hahax
Then today i went there din see her so nvm lorr=P hahax
REALLI another fukin borin day agn lorr...no soccer,no life and emo here emo there agn..Ltr going to gym wif BD-Brotas so it will be fun though=P
will update the post agn after the gym..Cya ltr Tata~!
Came bak frm the petal garden,Lost my phone.No more words came out when i reached home.Cried.Liane's Last sent msg was saved in the phone.
I WISH he had took my wallet containing my NIRC or smth,I dun Care..
Not my phone..U can hav my phone,u can hav everything.Cant u giv me bak my Sim card??..I intended to jump frm my hse,But i Hesitated.My family had not noe yet..I pang seh my 1yrs BD-Frens as goin to gym ended up Cryin at home.Sry Guys.
I dun hav u guys contact since is lost..
Wats Lost is Lost,Maybe is God Wans me to Forget u? or Issit u wan me to forget abt u?..No more cheerful LeoN,Wats Left was onli The Emo Me,Tat Principle of livin Cheerful had been cancelled off..
sry to those who regularly come to my blog de..there will be a long long period before i could recover and post PHOTOs..
Love U all~!
Sunday, September 23, 2007 @ 10:11:00 PM
A Day Wif HeR!
The Messy Table at Mac We had
Jac's Photo Skills
Drawin For Jac
While i am Drawin~!
Pic Of Me N JaC Today went to go studywif jac at the mac..Chatted and had fun time tgt at the mac.=P Crazy Tgt.Helped her wif physic but i think helped muchy.She Verii Zilian Lorr.Hahax takin pics here and there and here..=P hahax
She went to slp for awhile then suddenly wake up scare me..then went to her hse to get money for her dinnerr.=P then sent her back home.Her hse is SO TIDY up=P
hahax..Fun being her though.
Love can be found in many ways,But not all last long.Once i love u means i cant forget.Once i Giv Up its too Late to get BacK.
@ 10:12:00 AM
Photos of SteamboatinG!
Frm Right:Kim,Jac,Kris,MeCyrus takin pic,Andrew at <<<
Way Back Home~
(Andrew,Kris,Cyrus,LeoN)(Kim,Jac)
(Kim,Kris,Andrew,Cyrus,LeoN)(Jac)
Pals For Life!
Pals For Life!
Jac N Me-Beauty and the EmoKia
Jac And Andrew-Beauty and Joker
Jac And Kris-Beauty Wif the HandSome
Jac And Kim-JK Jie Mei Hua=P
Cyrus N JaC-Beauty and The Beast=P jkjk
CyruS Camera Shy de meh?=P
*Kim'sCameraShy*
*Kris Camera Shy*
Me Havin Mine=P
Andrew Havin His DinnerSaturday, September 22, 2007 @ 2:36:00 PM
Day oF RotteninG.NOT~
Fun Fun Fun.Ytd went out wif my old sch fren pals.everyone were jokin lyk hell,makin every laughs and had a great time.i love it went andrew is ard as the atmosphere is always so fun and cheerfulish.
There Was Cyrus,Jacqueline,Kimberly,KrisTan & Andrew.
Okay the funny thing is tat Jac Dun rmb who is Andrew,Kim dun rmb Kris and everyone was lyk Who are u!!Do i noe u?!!Haha.
At first i meet up wif cyrus on the bedok mrt station platform.W8in for a hour+ for andrew then kris came..We had a long chat over there.Next was Jac,Who keep tryin to recall who is andrew.hahax
Then was Kim,While we are on the train everyone was chit chatin everywhere.
Kris n i had nt contact for a long time le.It had been 4yrs since i last met him..
Tats a credit to andrew who called him out=P
So we went to marina bay for a dinner at zhengfa.Pretty Crowded but its still okay.
We had Fun eatin and photo takin session was held.everyone was feelin happy i am not wrong.am i?=P
So long nv hav such feelins of togetherness=P After eatin me and cyrus went to hav a few rounds of parapara.=P
Then Everyone went home.By MRT,of cuz.Andrew Drop off at payalebar.Kris Drop at Kembangan..and all others drop off at Eunos.
After tat was abt 12.05am when we reach ard my hse de bus stop.
hahax.Then send Jac home.ChitChating under void deck till 1.30am.
then went home.Was waitin for jac's call but horr while w8in i saw those borin show makin me more and more sianz and came slpy and gong gong de.=P
If i say anythin unneccessary Sry Jac=P hahax
So Tats all.Tata~
Morning
Today at home frm 9am till now stickin to com.done the washin of my uniform and preparin to go to marina bay wif old sch pals.Havin dinner and chitchat over the dinner..Tats wats i am planin to do ltr.but no signs of their replies.Scary.
@@ they cant make it in the end? doesnt wanna go? or family Affairs?
*Sign* No replies,Nobody noes..they juz kept silence wifout a words....
RotteninG and was Borin Borin Borin Borin laRs...
Continue ltr after the dinner ba,Promise u guys pictures..
Oh~ there Will be PICS~!!=P
@ 9:00:00 AM
EmO~
The Tree Was Covered By BeautiFul Lightings=P
BeautiFul DecoratioNs
The Busy Road Of The Malay Pasa Malam,Beside SingPosTToday
7am wake up to have breakfast wif my mum and dad in the market.another sux day,my mum&dad realli sux.but i din complain.all i do was juz ignore them or talk to them wif a fkin attitude.
_l_ SUCKY DAYS _l_
Ytd
Sianz sianz sianz..tat day was actually fun fun fun..but after smth happen(cyrus and william will noe wat)..i no feelin le.Started be cone EMO~Totally sucky day.
I suddendly think to the past wif Liane..those days were sweet but posionous. Once over the memories Remains..It Hurts after u Left.
My Family dun care me le.Frens is Tat Sweet and Kind to me.But no one will understands me..After we Went to the pasa malam..others went to GelangSeraiCC to play Sparklers(which cost me police report) and few rounds of basketball.
Then Me,Shang,Tat,Astria went to KFC for dinner and went to get ZhiHui to go home.EMO~
After tat we were seperated,leavin me,shang,zhihui..they took bus,i walk home.
Aloned.Tis feelin is wat u given me after u left me.But i love tis feelin as its wat u had last few things u given me...
Thursday, September 20, 2007 @ 3:10:00 PM
Tribal Tatto Freak.
My Name,LeoN..Draw on 17/09 Today the whole so tired and gong gong de..juz lyk drunk on tat day.
Then nowadays ppl kept fight and fight against eac other totally lame~Seein them fight is lyk so meaningless.Today saw WeiiSong face kana whacked and his face cracked abit.Worth it???... These few days i draw roman letter onto my hands and into my drawins.juz love it as it looks realli interestin and unique.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007 @ 1:48:00 PM
Soccer Fanatic
I was in love wif soccer nowadays.almost everyday goin to play soccer at petal garden.i felt lyk kickin the ball onto ppl.and i am not realli care abt injurin myself anymore.i am sensless and feelinless anyway.
Ltr goin to kick soccer at petal garden too.
I love u.But the distance is far.i may not make it into heaven.
Will u come and find me instead?Even its ur soul.I love u.
U may be dead but i noe u are Alive.~
-Continued at 4:07PM-
I went to petal garden.at first everyone was ready to play soccer,but shawn was found to be nearby..so they ask wif the match of weiisong and shawn was to settle today instead of other days..Then everyone was called over and was onli letted 4 frm our side and their side to go watch the fight under a void deck.i was not the four but my frens stood on a hill to witness the fight.
i was not interested in the fight so i din not went to watch but instead kick soccer wif shangyi,tatming and fookyou..at last i was furious so i went away as they doesnt wanna play soccer at all..wastin my fkin great time..
Sry william for scoldin u* cuz i was furious at the moment.
So i went home and started to use com lorr..Still furious but i was calm after cyrus sent me a msg to tell me tat:"Heng u went home early ar,got police copy our name." HAHAHA.
So follow me is always the rite choice.=D
Fuck All.Knn.PCB.CCB.CB.KP.KB.BoLJ.BoLP. _l_(^.^)_l_
*:If u see it.~!
Monday, September 17, 2007 @ 2:24:00 PM
Another Rottening Day
Ytd
Today i had nth to do.cant use com as my bro was usin and he had lesson wif his students too.so i had no choice to keep quiet and stay at the livin rm and watch tv.BORIN.Dunno wat business Show ShenWanSan Agn.Why i sianz horr always tis show?=P hahax.Then i took vodka and drink.i drank all the six type in my hse frm 10am i drink till 11am then peng and slp till 3am.Wake up so ache and gong gong de=Phahax.but nice drinkin alone=.=lll
Peach,Vodka,Vanilla,Kurant,RaspBerry,Mandrin.Saturday, September 15, 2007 @ 11:58:00 AM
Shadow Of Aloniness~
Took a shadow as i thought tat shadow was similar to me.Aloniness.No One understands me except You.Liane
Ytd i went to Ard Damai Primary there to play soccer,great experience as we won 3 rounds straight=P.Of cuz not i help de..i juz helped to block the ball twice=P
Wif Haziq and WeiiSong.After tat went to Mac to slack then Sent her sis Fren home,then everyone walks Home.Tats was a excitin experience to play wif those strangers..hahax
@ 11:38:00 AM
Emo CoveRs Me!!
Today
So today is another EMO day,not goin out..Gamin for alr 3Hours,
Nick called me to help him to meet up wif ppl to get the money for the mesos(mapleMoneyZ) he is sellin..i can earn a 100 bucks frm juz meetin up wif tat guy and pass the mesos to him.EasyMoney.=)
YtDAfter MT Paper1 Retest Prelim at 10am..We went bak to class to slack abit as here was still 2hours away frm Paper2,in class we played pokers,soccer@@ and after i had few rounds of soccer i was tired and emo so went to get chairs to slp=P
Its quite comfortable then i thought it will be...
Feeling so EMO.Leavin iS a new Begining,but there will not be any for me.
Sunday, September 9, 2007 @ 12:22:00 PM
A Day oF RotteninG~!
TODAY
Aiiya..Slp till 11.30pm..Realli a Piggy. =.=lll
then watch tat SenWanSan Show which i lyk it as its teaches how to do business the intelligent way..i love it.Tml is math prelim.tis whi=ole holi i din touch any homework yet as i dun feel lyk doin..=P
Sianz,Sianz,Sianz~
Aiiya..Slp till 11.30pm..Realli a Piggy. =.=lll
then watch tat SenWanSan Show which i lyk it as its teaches how to do business the intelligent way..i love it.Tml is math prelim.tis whi=ole holi i din touch any homework yet as i dun feel lyk doin..=P
Sianz,Sianz,Sianz~
YTD
Wat a day at Home..the whole stayed home..bein a good boy=P
At first hand started rot then slowly the whole body=P Nah juzjokin..
Sittin infront the com whole day,after playin slp,wake up play agn,then slp=P
Till ard 6pm,we went to our circuit road where my grandma stayin ard,to had our dinner at our standard place of BBQ stingray N Sotong
then called ChickenWings,LiangTouFu Soup
then had dessert of icekachang..but i had some sort called
mango ice wif cocktail fruits
Wat a FULL day~
Friday, September 7, 2007 @ 11:38:00 PM
A Dine Wif TeacheR
Hahax,today went out wif MrsLoh.Aka.MrsLohMingYueh totally fun and happy.
Andrew,Cyrus,Me N MissTanMY..She Treats us Fish&Co.
Totally Awesome but my horr WHY so Small Portion..haha tats why i kept grabing andrew's swordfish collar=P and misstan's Seafood patter..
Haha..had a fun time wif MissTanMY and those tat chit chat of present and the old past times=P hahax..time went pass fast..MissTanMY had alr married and goin to Japan in 2months time=P
Then went to watch the 19floor of hell wif Elene,Engtek,Bauntong,Cyrus,Calvin n joanna..Totally lame show..then had few rounds of MT3 hahax Fun Fun Fun=P
hahax...
had a fun day..LOVE MissTanMY
LOVE Baby 03/09/07
Wednesday, September 5, 2007 @ 2:58:00 PM
Police Police Police~!!!
Anther fukin day lor..today gt a police case and was a first time i gt my police case sia..super super scary..everything looks juz so fine when the sparklers started a fire on the playground burnin off part of the playground..
it all started wif my decision of playin sparklers at nite..we all nth to do ma..then my dar and her frens(roubing,xiufeng) seems lyk nth to do so i suggested to play sparklers,its a wrong decision...
Started,we after finishes playin the sparklers..we went to a void deck to slack lorr..then afterwards police car came and stop behind of us and came forward ask us wat were we doin..then copy our Nirc then asked check whether our phone were stolen goods..Damned tats was a first time i meeted wif such things..zzz
Then afterwards tat,we scare tat they might notice the fire so we went away..wif our heads keep urnin bak..then when we reach my hse we kept lookin at the windows towards dwnstair and saw tat police officer DID came bak and look for us super scare at tat time larr..but calm dwn abit le lorr..
Then the officer came to my doorsteps,SIANZ..thought it might be over but at last they called us out to drink coffee wif them larr..totally scary~!!..
One of the officer said tat if we confess abt the fire we can be spare us frm goin to the station..so we admitted then we went dwnstairs to the void deck we are previously sittin..sianz sianz sianz..5mins there came a police van which can sit abt 8-10 person ba..=.=lll heart pumpin lyk siao larr..then we was asked to sit inside to go to the station but at last..the van drive ard bak to our previously void deck place,writin a report lorr...i took the blame for the things as i am the suggested to play..BUT hor i think back horr i din burn anything leh..Its my baby and xiufeng LEH..hahax jkjk okay lars its my fault at the start anyway=P hahas
Lol..then at last horr we went bak to my flat and had a good slp lorr..totally sianz larr..everyone was still so happy dunno why leh..its lyk the police might call their parents anytime lorr..i am still scare at tat time but my baby calm me dwn abit ba..wat a day~!!But on tat day i was sooo in luck tat everyone frm my family was kept a secert frm le..sian== got a police report liao~
the world still turnin but my mind had stop movin n heart had stop pumpin alr.
Sunday, September 2, 2007 @ 5:37:00 PM
Wat a DinneR~!
Abalone,Pork,Chicken,Fish,Squid,FishBalls,CrabMeat,Eggs
My DinneR for today~!Becuz My eldest bro was bak for dinner so my mum prepare a TomYam Steamboat Full of delicracy=P=P YUM.YUM!~
@ 1:05:00 PM
Rottenin Day~!
i Wear GreenTopman Ts.S&K bamudas,GreenCrumpleBag N Havaianas ScandalsRottenin at Home..so so so sianz
not bloggin then friendster,not friendster then SF SIANZ arr...:P:P
Ytd went to Mac studyin wif tat n Jx but at last din realli study much i was drawin stuffs=P abt 6.30pm went to Penisula to buy skinny jeans for tats
then went to suntec convention hall to check the latest n cheapest technology stuff,totally cheap=P
haha!Fun Fun Fun wif Tats N Jx ard lorr=P
FrensRules
