Friday, April 11, 2008 @ 1:12:00 PM
Hatre
Tis blog is not dead yet.
juz tat i cant use com since the last post.
cuz i had been shut frm usin my bro's com at home.
now i had to sell my psp for money to pay my debts of phone bill.
at most i could sell was onli abt 100 or maybe less.
i noe they had w8ed for tat chance to get rid of my psp.
cuz they are jealous tat i had a psp myself.
my dad offered a help of payin my debts for me but i refused.
my debts my responsibility hence i need to pay myself.
but in the end i had to sell my xiaohei to someone is able to take care of it.
there are 2 who are interested in buyin.
bauntong and alfred.
i dun care who will take but or anything,
or maybe they change their mind on buying hence,
i dun care anymore.
i had been grounded,but since no more com,no more psp.
stayin home is too time wastin le.
i given up on attracting attention and i think,
tis family could no longer allow me to speak,
or either act.
tis is juz a place for me to stay over.
i given my 4Gb memory card to my mei,
as a token of my forgivness but forgivin or not is up to her.
...
as for XiaoHei.
Our destiny ends here.
soon we will forget we ever owned eac other.
..
as for My studies,
i tried to work hard in it.
but it doesnt seems to help as my mind is too
luan and confused le.
things juz pop up one after another.
i could not blame anyone else but myself.
at least there are ppl out there who care and listen to me.
my buddies,my friends,my crew and even my gans.
but wat abt my kins?
i had no chance or rights to speak out loud to them anymore.
soon i found out tat wateva i say and i do in tis house.
im always wrong.
i envy ppl who are beside me.
not tat im comparin but i am jealous.
juz think why are ppl who were poorer then me,
income a month was less than 900bucks is happily livin wif their family?
but on the other hand i am so lonely in tis family.
so lonely.
no one to speak to,no one to share my thoughts to and not a single soul i could share my point of views.
i think tat all i wanna say.
TIS BLOG IS NOT DEAD.
but juz tat i cant update for certain reasons.
=)
