Sunday, March 9, 2008 @ 1:15:00 PM
the family issue
i am quite tired wif the attitude my family are givin me.
but i juz cant fight back.
as i am a person who juz cant go against family or kins.
But the attitude tat they are givin are juz not makin me happy abt it.
ppl are happy and proud to be in their family.
Ya i might be proud of their achievements.
but i am not happy to be in tis family.
When they sees me,they giv me a unhappy face n expect me to giv them a smiley face?
The first word comin frm their mouth when sees me confirm is abt housework or smth tats wat makes me veri unhappy abt..i am ur maid?
i noe tat we share the work,but could more respect me as ur brother rather then a maid..Still askin me to giv him respect by askin permission for his things.
Not givin me respect u expect me to giv you?
Think Agn Please.
i had ignore ur unhappy face since sec1 or 2.
now i am sec5..i think i hav a way of my thinkin?
i will nv be silence anymore but doin actions.
Takin ur things wifout permission? ur Things?
Okay i needa make smth clear wif u.
I am not workin,no money cant own anything.
i am always wearing things u left for me.
new clothes are always the one i buy for myself?
if someone gives u wat they tired of wearing wat do u feel?
Proud of wat u wearing?
i noe u are unhappy abt i wearing ur stuff.
but could u think of my feelings too.
there 80% u dun allow me use ur stuff and things since young.
tats wat makes me tired of askin so i use it be4 u could do anything.
and tats wat makes me nth to say to my family.
cuz everything i say,i do or even prizes i won doesnt stands anything in this family.
i will soon move out when i had the chance.
thats a 100% thing to do.
i wish i could be out tis family now.
i juz cant live in tis hse for another second.
it makes me sick.
Ppl Loves their home and family.
but for me might be different ba.
i envy others parents,even a slight improvement of a mark in a test.
they were being praised or even awarded wif presents.
but me?
not a single word.
i still rmb the day when i had 2 A1 for maths and science.
a Fail in english wif 48marks.
they did not say a word abt the distinction or no presents.
but instead scolded me badly for my english..
frm tat day,i had no motivation,or the heart to care anymore.
Friends are the onli one who could movtivate me now.
i hav no family i guess.
maybe i am realli a baby they found in the trash.
